sooo yeah im really tired...and in pain i dont know whats been going on with my body... all my bones and muscles just... hurt as if i were in an accident

and i keep drinking dr.pepper o.o like a drug... its so odd

I was going to write chapter 2 of my book yesterday... but i got so tired... and then i thougt of another idea for a book/movie

ill try to work on both

yesterday i started playing Pokemon again xD 112 hours!!!! and still 2 badges... >_>;; 9 more pokemon need to get to level 30 then i can get to the gym!!! >o but im still annoyed cuz ONE pokemon is level 16 (Happiny) but i dont want to level him u cuz i need the stone to make him Chansey and he learns good things before 30

so yah

I also started reading xD since its been on there for like motnhs... This Boys Life... and its actually really good o.o.. i mean its a little rough xD like litrally because hes a scragamuffin

but uh... yah... im tired and i need a break today for scoializing, going out, and i wish driving but il have to at least do some more on residential

but all in all... i guess im ok...

i found out my 3rd cousin DOuglas (who has been essentially my favorite cousin ever... for many years even if i only met him like twice) lives basically next door to my grandmother... sooooo... i get to see him this summer and im excited...

cept... u.u i dont want to go to CA... in the summer... not if i cant be normal and go to Santa Monica like i do every summer... and be with....

*big sad sigh*

but... maybe ill get to see my Auntie... on my dads side... and on my moms side my uncle with HIV---still mad no one told me til way later =_= w/e ill get married and not tell most my family anyway so HA

but.. yah i miss my Tyler and my Michael even if i they dont miss me >D;;; i feel so old... im not supposed to treasure them til im old right? but i already am all ";-; i never appreciated you" "alex that was like 2 years ago" ";o;" but yah... i wanna see my Uncy Jim and my Uncy Nick... o_O AND MY GRANDMAMA KATHIIIIEEEEE >3<

i dunn... most people have family out the wazoo and see them all the time

i have a very little family and never see them... were close but we arent...its always awkward and quiet... until like the first 3 hours pass... x____x i wish... i had a closer family... or got to see them more... >.< BUT I AINT MOVING... SO NYAH

not until im older... maybe ill move in with my grandma kathie one day o.o until i get hitched

which to me will never happen

but i thoyght about that all day yesterday and actually cried during the meeting x_x cuz im so lame

w/e

ok

im done

gotta catch um all before i get too old and forget the happiness pokemon brought me